♥ MX ♥

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Goh Ming Xian, Xenia
Nicknames: Mx . Ah Xian . MianXian. MeeHoonKuey . ZhuZhu

Juying Pri Sch & Boon Lay Sec Sch
BMC Academy: LCCI DBA & PSD
RP: D.Integrated.Events.Mgn
SIM: UOL BSc(Hons)Business

Birthday: 02.10.1988
Horoscope : Libra

♥ MY LOVE ♥
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Thursday, June 26, 2008

I was totally touched and cried when i saw this in my beloved friend's blog:

" 我依然在撑着。。

回头望,我不知道在撑什么我不知道为谁而撑着 (或许为了一直并肩作战的她)

那一次次的无奈与无助或许只有你看到那一次次的失败与绝望我们也默默的忍着撑着,

好辛苦。。放弃也好辛苦。。

我撑着一辈子没有受过的屈辱,愤怒和感慨不知道为了什么正在哭泣。

不关结果如何,我只想好好谢你。。。

谢了mx "

At least i know what i had done has been appreciated by someone.

I will not give up cos i do not want our efforts to be wasted.

No matter what, we will tried our best even not appreciated by others.

Just as long as we think what we do is right then just continue with it.

Lucky i have you, if not i had already gave up.

Thanks for always helping me when i am need any help.

Thanks for answering me when i ask any question.

Thanks for working hard with me even when you have alot of things to work on.

Many thanks.

Loves.

~MianXian~

1:07 AM

Tuesday, June 17, 2008

Just to share with you a touching love story that i had read from an email...

今天期中考,学校早一点放学,我打了通电话给他。

咏熙:喂,我今天比较早放学,你来载我回家好不好?   
梦伟:好,等我五分钟。   
咏熙:五分钟?我学校就在你家旁边耶。  
梦伟:我总要打扮一下啊。   

咏熙:好啦,快一点喔。
 
下午2:00,太阳大的让我有种冲动想喷鼻血,我站在树荫下挥动着手,虽然没凉到哪里去,但是煽总比不煽好。  

五分钟过了,他还没来,我看看手表,有点不高兴,十分钟过了,他还没到,该不会出了什么事吧?呸呸呸... 乌鸦嘴,十五分钟过了,他总算到了。  
    

咏熙:怎么这么慢?   
他一副无所谓的样子说:没啊,看个电视。  
咏熙: 什么?看个电视?你要不要顺便睡个觉洗个澡吃个饭再来?

我没有说话,没有拿安全帽,没有上车的瞪着他。   

梦伟:对不起。   

这是他第一次对我说对不起,他是一个很大男人主义,爱面子的男生,所以他从不像女生低头说对不起,我看着他,好吧,似乎面有惭色,我带上安全帽,让他载我回家。   

他总是这样,从来不解释,不争论,不跟我吵架,只跟我说对不起,有些事,不是一句对不起就能解决的,但是他都跟我道歉了,我也就没再追究下去,他说,我是第一个让他说对不起的女生。   

认错需要很大的勇气,但是他从来都没有改进他的错误,对不起反而变成一种打发我的话。

在他说第59次对不起时,
我流着泪,低下头说:你不要再跟我说对不起了,如果你无法改变,就不要让我给你一次又一次的机会,相信你会改变。
他轻轻的拥着我,说了第60句对不起。   

虽然如此,他还是没有改变,不做任何的解释,我开始怀疑他是不是有事瞒着我。   
咏熙:你最近怎么了?   

梦伟:没有啊。   
咏熙:那你为什么心情不好?   
梦伟:没有啊。   
咏熙:又是没有啊,你除了这句话以外没有别的吗?你知不知道我很担心,很没有安全感,你到底有没有当我是你女朋友?   
梦伟:对不起。   
咏熙:我不要听你说对不起。   
  

我挂了电话,他也没有打来,他根本就不在乎我,也许,我们该结束了...
这是他说的第99句对不起。   

从那天开始,我再也没有找过他,他也没有打电话给我,有时候,我会接到一通无声的电话,但是我喂了几声,就挂了,有一种直觉是他,但是他为什么都不说话?

一个月之后,我按奈不住思念的心情决定到他学校找他,我在教室外东张西望的,就是没有看到他的人影,我随便抓了一个男生来问。

咏熙:同学,请问一下,梦伟今天有来吗?   
男同学:他休学了。   
咏熙:啊?为什么?什么时候的事?   
男同学:他已经一个月没来了。   
咏熙:喔..谢谢。

一个月..一个月没来,怎么会呢?我跌跌撞撞的回到家。拨他的手机:您的电话已经为您转到语音信箱,请在嘟一声我挂了电话,打到他家,响了好久都没有人接,怎么会?全家移民吗?他仿佛是从这世界上消失了一样,没有一点痕迹。
 
他该不会另结新欢了吧?我开始胡思乱想,我找不到他...

正当我烦恼的时候,电话突然响了,是阿立打来的,他是梦伟的死党也是我的好友。   

阿立:喂,你还在干嘛啊?   
咏熙:没什么 ...   
阿立:ㄚ伟在医院。   

咏熙:真的?他怎么了?   
阿立:没有啦,他在 xx 医院,就是你上次住的那一家。   

咏熙:我马上去。   

我立刻用我出生以来最大的速度飙到那家医院,在医院看到了他妈妈,我向他们问了他在哪一间病房之后,就急忙的飞奔而去。   

他躺在床上,眼睛看着我,没有说话,没有起床,一动也不动的。   
咏熙:喂,你怎么了?为什么不通知我呢?   

他没有回答我,只是一直用同样的眼神看着我。   
咏熙:回答我啊,你为什么不说话?

他眼角留下了一滴泪,身体仿佛用了最大的力气,牵动着嘴角   
梦伟:对不起...
说完,他闭上了眼睛。   
咏熙:喂,你别装了好不好,为什么要说对不起,我不要你说对不起啊,你起来啊,回答我啊。   
我哭倒在他床边,拉着他的衣服哭喊着:你为什么要说对不起,连说服我的理由都没有?我不会原谅你,你起来啊,你说对不起没有用啊,你不起来我这辈子都不会原谅你,我求求你....睁开眼睛啊...


这是他说的一百句对不起...

一群医生和护士拉开我,开始抢救他,我全身没有力气再站起来,我的头脑一片空白,眼前一片漆黑…  

他没有离开这个世界,只是我永远都无法触摸到他,但他有时也会在我的梦中出现,告诉我他过的好不好。他还是陪着我,还是活着,在我心里,他依然如昔,还是会笑着叫我咏熙,叫我老婆,只是, 他不再对我说对不起了。

  
过了几个月,他妈妈来找我,给了我一个盒子,里面装的,是一百张照片,每一张照片的背面,都写着它让我生气的事情。   


第一次对不起,
老婆,我今天不是故意迟到的,我也知道理由很烂,但是我真的不忍心说实话,我在出门前突然心脏绞痛,但是我已经尽量赶了,原谅我好吗?

第二次对不起?

老婆,我 … … …


第三次对不起,
老婆,我 … … …

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第一百次对不起,老婆,我不是狠心要丢下你,只是上帝似乎不给我这个机会让我爱你一辈子,为你带上戒指,你是我第一个让我说对不起的女孩,也是我第一个想共度一生的女孩,原谅我不能给你幸福,我会化作天使,守护着你,看着你得到幸福,答应我,别哭,我不要看到你为了我憔悴流泪的样子,我爱你。
Bye 梦伟  


我怎么可能不哭,你的要求太严苛了,最后一张照片,是他在医院理拍的,照片上他笑的很灿烂,他变的好瘦,脸色好苍白,但是他还是露出了笑容,拍这第一百张照片。
  
在他最虚弱罪痛苦的时候,我没有陪着他。

对不起。   
我抱着他的照片,泪流不止 …

愿天下所的情人.
愿你们能珍惜眼前的人,不要失去后才懂得珍惜...
不要让悲剧再上演!

如果我還一直深愛著你...

你是否還會待在我身邊?

如果我還一直在乎著你...
你是否會再多看我一眼?

是否我已不存在了...
你才感覺的到我的離開?

是否我已離開了....
你才感覺的到我對你的好?

3:30 PM

Sunday, June 15, 2008

You said you want to talk to me
But you didnt...

Just one sentence:
I am very tired

OK, I GOT IT!
It's time for me to shut up and just go sleep!

I dunno how am i going to communicate with you

when you dun want to answer me when i talk
when i can only see you for 2 days a week
when we dun ever have the time to talk
when sleeping is your priority
worst of all,
when you dun even wish to talk to me

L o s t


~MianXian~

2:47 AM

Friday, June 13, 2008

Less than 1 month to our event...
21 days to go~

I am starting to get anxious over it...
So little time,
So much tasks to be done

Venue? Tentage? Chairs? Tables?
Programs? Performances? Budget?

Mx is demoralised
with no mood to go back to school

Now in the middle of the night,
mx still here trying to figure out what she can write for her logbook...
Sad Sad Sad

After the event,
we still need to work on report & presentation...

For School,
Lessons, Presentations, Rjs, UTs
still goes on...

How am i going to survive through my last year in RP?
I wonder...

This is not the kind of life mx wants.
Actually mx dunno what she wants also.
Ai ya, I DUNNO
(-.-)"
~ c o n f u s ed ~
But thankfully,
i have my beloved friends
who gave me encouragements & supports
Love you!
Thanks Alot



~Emo Ah Xian~

Drawn by my mei mei Nice One!

~MianXian~

2:27 AM

Thursday, June 12, 2008

Mood for today: Sad-ed

Mx was talking on phone with him
when some misunderstandings happened

I dunno whether is it the method or the words that i had use
to talk to him was wrong??
Or is it really there is nothing we can talk anymore?
I dunno...


He said i make him very stressed
by saiding words that are "shooting" against him
but what i said is all truth and i dun mean to "shoot" at him


What he told me was:
Entering the police force is a way to test our relationship
TEST?
Okay take it as a test...
I dunno what will happen
who knows?


What i can do now is to have faith & belief
that everything will be fine and all right


To Dearest Dear,
Happy 22 to the both of us
I believe our love will still goes on and on
Forever & Ever

Y Love you Y
Don't mean to hurt you with my words...


Remember this sentence you wrote for me:

If loving you has an expiry date,
It would be FOREVER



I Y U
U Y Me

Forever Y

~Mian Xian~

1:38 AM

Wednesday, June 11, 2008

Mx is fine!
=)

Holidays is going to end soon...
means that mx have to go back to school soon
need to rush on our project
event is going to happen in less that 1 mth time
,,,
v (-.-) v


Anyway, went to watch kungfu panda last sat with my booboo
Nice show...
Especially like the emotions and action of Po the panda
Simple storyline but lots of funny stuff
Remember there is a part where Po wanted to give up learning kungfu...
He was having a talk with the Master Wu Gui (Tortoise)


Po: Maybe i should give up and just go back and sell my noodles...
Master Wu Gui: No Give Up. No Noodles.


LoL! His reply is so cute la...
NO NOODLES...
LOL!

Okay, free go catch Kungfu Panda...
It is a nice show =)
* * * * *
5 stars for Kungfu Panda
(^.^)

Love my dear...
Thanks for accompanying me
even when you are already very tired...
I know i might be irritating at sometimes,
but you know i love you no matter what

Remember the first time we hold our hands...


~MianXian~

4:35 AM

Thursday, June 05, 2008

I know you love me alot,
I love you!
Hope you can see this...
I don't mean to quarrel everytime we talk on phone.
I don't wish to have communication breakdown with you.
I love you, dear

~MianXian~

2:36 AM

HOLIDAYS!
Actually i dun really look forward for this holiday,
cos there is nothing much i can do for this 2 weeks holi
all i can do is to sleep late everyday,
sleep all i want for more than 12 hours...

And get enuff rest just before school starts,
then work and rush on our project again
Feeling rather lost and down now
~EMO MX~
~MX EMO-ING~

Was talking on phone with boo,
dunno how dunno what dunno dunno dunno
we "quarrelled"????
Maybe it is becos of my bad attitude toward him
or i dun like the way he talk to me
i became unhappy
then start to "quarrel"
As what he had asked me...
"Why everytime i like to quarrel with him when we talk on phone?"

I dunno why
& I dun mean to quarrel
But do you know sometimes,
things you said makes me feel hurt or unhappy

Do you know how i feel?
Maybe i dunno how you feel also...
MY FAULT?
YOUR FAULT?
OUR FAULT?
NO ONE FAULT?
"Love you... I think that we are having communication breakdown... NiteNite"
This is your message to me after the call...

Broke down and cried
I never tot that a communication breakdown would happen btw us.
I dunno what i can said.

My feeling is like... ...
Being stabbed in my heart,
bleeding non-stop

No one esle can help me,
only you can but where are you
You just off your phone without thinking whether i will be replying to your msg.
Maybe we are really drifting apart,
nothing to talk anymore...
SAD

~MingXian~

2:02 AM